Idolatry is a form of obsessive worship. I suppose I fall into this category when it comes to photography, the object being the obsession with seeing. To my eyes, when in the throes of my personal idolatry, every moment is a photograph to be made. At the moment, it’s not happening for me. I have been carrying this Leica around for the better part of a week with a spooled roll of Acros, and I haven’t pressed the shutter even once!
I truly believe I am at a crossroad with photography. I want more. I am paralyzed from being unable to come to grips with that “more” is. I think it comes partially from trying to get my arms around a very personal and emotional photography project. I hope it to be an expression of a very difficult experience and the habit of avoidance and fear of it is vexing.
If Isabel Curdes reads this, I ask for patience. I have the map of thoughts and suggestions you prepared for me in my camera bag, always. I will be taking a peaceful trip in a few weeks and with that time I hope to gain clarity on all of it, giving me the ability to proceed.
Take care…it will come in your own time. Some things can’t be forced.
Thank you Isabel.
Summer can be a tough time Lou. I find myself feeling the same way often and it’s been a while since I posted. (I currently have 2 cameras w/unfinished rolls in them.) I’m going on vaca soon as well and hope to snap out of it…
Good luck to you, sir.